I took my first bath in our new condo tonight, finally. It was long overdue. I’ve been running around attempting to unpack, fix the apartment up, etc and in general, creating this little life is taking a toll on my energy levels, emotionally and physically. This was so relaxing and necessary ugh let me stay there forever.

Fleetwood Mac, Rhiannon

Autumn and Halloween honestly ruins my life because I love it and it fills me with so much joy. I’m already squealing and it’s not even October.

Natalia Drepina

Natalia Drepina

I’m, for the first time in a long time, beginning to break out. Not much but I’m noticing it. What do you use to wash and moisturizer your face?

Dave and I were grabbing a shower caddy and toothbrush holder at the store. We got in line and at the cash register, there was a mom with a little girl in a cart. The little girl looks dead at me, points and says ‘you have a baby’. Everyone starts looking around and no one, visibly, has a baby. But she says it again until her mother butts in.

It was very strange. So eerily perceptive!

An exploration in profiles.

The right side of my face (bottom) has always bothered me. The right side is lopsided, awkward, hideous, uneven. The more I look at it, the more I realize it’s true (not, I don’t think, to the extreme I notice it) and even worse, since I stopped wearing my retainer, my teeth are extreme & noticeably crooked. Honestly, the older the get the more I begin to appreciate everything I am. With the incoming baby, I am making an even stronger effort to grow more in love with myself. I never want my child to go through insecurities as much as i have in my past which partially had to do with always hearing beauty this, beauty that, pretty this, pretty that. I’d like to avoid that and I always want my child to hear how I love my body, I love my face, I love myself even though I’m not perfect. Not egotistically but simply.

If I have a daughter, I will teach her how to rip a man’s throat out with her wolf teeth and talons. Or I may just teach her the fierce stare of the eyes to back any man down that tries to degrade and disrespect her.

My sister is, for thinking she is the best person in the world, is one of the worst.

Reminder: if you need recognition for your good deeds, chances are you are not a good person.

I have no power over your voice. It comes straight from you to me. I could stuff my ears and it would find it’s way into my blood and make it rise.

Anaïs Nin in a letter to Henry Miller