I sent you a message not to long ago, about how soon is too soon to say i love you. Well, i told him i loved him and he did too. Everything was fine until a few days ago he told me we need to slow down and he wanted to make sure he loved me as a person because we were talking a lot of sexual topics. This is a long distance thing and said he will know by the time we meet in august. I'm so scared he won't love me. I know i sound stupid but It just seems like the end of the world.@Anonymous
Find no worry in not being loved, rather; just love. Like, chart your own love. Fear will begin to clog up your capability of loving and cause a downward spiral of negative delusions that may, in fact, cause strife between you and this lova lova. And certainly strife within yourself. The extra padding of fear will put a heaviness on the relationship. There is this wall being built, an unnecessary one, cutting your love off from the world. The love is becoming stagnant, neither coming nor going. Not to be shared with anyone, not even yourself.
Therefore, it’s silly to be worried. Worrying won’t change a thing except your perception. Relax until the time comes and then, relax some more. In the meantime, supplement yourself with love, let it breed from dewdrops into oceans. Like, letting fear arise within you will just tire and delude you.
You don’t sound stupid in the slightest. Daily plights such as these can twist the core of us. Rows with family members, fiery arguments with spouses - you’re not alone. Just remember the world won’t actually explode. We tend to be our own atom bombs.